To die? But this idea that I am going to put into my book where it will stay, is that not a part of myself? So that part will not die. But is it not the most important since it is that that all my familial, amorous, social experience has resulted in; doubtless in the book the link will be broken that now exists between it and the consciousness that I have of being ill, of sleeping badly, of being fickle in love. But have I not come to understand through Bergotte that all of this is of no importance, have I not attempted to disengage myself from it in order to form these ideas, and on the contrary might I not fear that they carry within themselves too much rather than too little distinction?
Created 18.11.19